with.your.eyes.open

So, here's the deal. I wasn't planning on posting today. Like, at all. I had it all planned out, to post it on Monday, with a few days in between chapter nine and ten. Because, well, because I like to have my stories with some space in between, you know? But then people start bugging me, and someone says something about a thing that I'm not gonna talk about here, and then, well, then monnie44 uses reverse psychology on me, so I give in and figured, well, it's here, it's betad. I might as well post. *nods*

Final chapter of the story that took my attention from everything but it for a whole three months. I love it, I can't say I don't. I love the way it was plotted, how it got written, and I adore the ending. *nods*

Now, let me tell you that I'm proud to present, the final chapter of Yelling.

Title: Yelling
Author: M. F. Luder
Fandom: The O.C.
Rating: NC-17.
Status: Completed
Category: Angst. Drama. Character torture. My kind of thing. *eg*
Author's note: You might know this story as what I used to call The Dark Story, and you can see all my rantings about this right there. *nods*
This story totally belongs to l_vera01, who pushed and nudged and kicked and screamed and even threatened with body harm if it did not get done. *hugs tight* I love you to pieces babe.
Betad by the one storydivagirl, the only, there is no other like her. *nods* She adores this story, says I hurt Ryan like no other and she loves me for this. Bare in mind she adores angst, so that might not say good things about this story.
I have nothing else to say except, read at your own risk. *nods* Believe me.

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( Chapter ten )

Like I said, many things. To everyone who has stuck by me since it was first posted, back in September of last year, a day after I finished it. *nods* One of the reasons I posted it, actually, because I felt in my mind that I need to have something done before venturing to keep on writing another series, not knowing when it would end.

It's here, it's done. God. It's done. Can you believe it that? It has an ending, and it's done. *sighs*

Oh, and a final note, for those of you who didn't notice, didn't realize, I found comfort through out this story, not only in "Three Doors Down" as an amazing band, but also in this particular song, "Sarah Yellin'". The name, as you might noticed, was inspired by that song. And truth be told, I have no idea what came first: me, with the idea that I could torture Ryan yet this way, and then finding the story to fill my soul with it; or finding the story and the plotting against Ryan. *shrugs*

Hope you like this story half as much as I loved writing it. Thank you, and it's been lovely. *nods*

So, yes, just like I promised. *g* I can't believe there's only one more chapter left to go. Yep, you heard right, this story ends in Chapter ten, so we're close, people. Very close. *bounces*

I have to say, not only this will be the first series I've ever finished in this fandom, but also, god, it's the one I've put more effort to, besides Sullen. Short stories, well, you give them a week, two, and then either they are done or you put them in a drawer and get them out to finish them in one sitting or just to look at them. This story? I thought about nothing but this story for three whole months. I put everything on hold, I think, except a challenge or two, and dedicated myself to torturing Ryan. I'm very, very proud of this story. *bounces*

And now, posted specially for my dear monnie44, whom I totally adore, here it is. *bounces* Enjoy!

Title: Yelling
Author: M. F. Luder
Fandom: The O.C.
Rating: R.
Category: Angst. Drama. Character torture. My kind of thing. *eg*
Author's note: You might know this story as what I used to call The Dark Story, and you can see all my rantings about this right there. *nods*
This story totally belongs to l_vera01, who pushed and nudged and kicked and screamed and even threatened with body harm if it did not get done. *hugs tight* I love you to pieces babe.
Betad by the one storydivagirl, the only, there is no other like her. *nods* She adores this story, says I hurt Ryan like no other and she loves me for this. Bare in mind she adores angst, so that might not say good things about this story.
I have nothing else to say except, read at your own risk. *nods* Believe me.

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( Chapter nine )

With all that, said and done, let me know what you think. *eg*

I wasn't planning on updating this, I really wasn't. I wanted to update another story, but then I checked my email and realized that my dearest Mare had emailed me the betad version. *bounces* Mon, as your request...

Title: Yelling
Author: M. F. Luder
Fandom: The O.C.
Rating: PG-13.
Category: Angst.
Author's note: You might know this story as what I used to call The Dark Story, and you can see all my rantings about this right there. *nods*
This story totally belongs to l_vera01, who pushed and nudged and kicked and screamed and even threatened with body harm if it did not get done. *hugs tight* I love you to pieces babe.
Betad by the one storydivagirl, the only, there is no other like her. *nods* She adores this story, says I hurt Ryan like no other and she loves me for this. Bare in mind she adores angst, so that might not say good things about this story.
I have nothing else to say except, read at your own risk. *nods* Believe me.

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( Chapter eight )

That said, did you all notice my almost new icon? In case you didn't notice, this is the "Yelling" icon and you will all come to know it very well. *g* I adore it. It's just... wow. It says so much, so very much in so very little. *bounces*

Going to bed now. It's late, it's late! *rushes off*

I'm evil. That should become my middle name, for real. No only did I write dark fics, and people enjoy them, but I'm turning my betas into it as well. storydivagirl can't quite believe that not only she likes the mpreg I wrote but also my noncon. *giggles* See? Evil like that.

Title: Yelling
Author: M. F. Luder
Fandom: The O.C.
Rating: PG-13.
Category: Angst.
Author's note: You might know this story as what I used to call The Dark Story, and you can see all my rantings about this right there. *nods*
This story totally belongs to l_vera01, who pushed and nudged and kicked and screamed and even threatened with body harm if it did not get done. *hugs tight* I love you to pieces babe.
Also, I have to give huge thanks to beachtree, who helped me make this story better. She helped with the hurt and the angst and is the one that will probably force me to finish writing this other thing I'm writing that has everything to do with this story. Thanks, sweetie!
Betad by the one storydivagirl, the only, there is no other like her. *nods* She adores this story, says I hurt Ryan like no other and she loves me for this. Bare in mind she adores angst, so that might not say good things about this story.
I have nothing else to say except, read at your own risk. *nods* Believe me.

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( Chapter seven )

That chapter being posted, the other one already on the beta, have you seen my icon? Yes, it is what it looks like. That's my brand new Yelling icon. *bounces* I love it. So perfect for our broken woobie, don't you think?

I'm going now. Let me know what you think of the chapter. *g*

I had not noticed that it's been so long since the last time I update this story. I swear. I thought only a couple of weeks had passed. *shrugs* Anyway, I'm updating it now. *g* Yes, it's here. Fear me. *g*

I can't wait to know what you all think. *bounces*

Title: Yelling
Author: M. F. Luder
Fandom: The O.C.
Pairing: Pre-slash.
Rating: NC-17
Category: Angst.
Author's note: You might know this story as what I used to call The Dark Story, and you can see all my rantings about this right there. *nods*
This story totally belongs to l_vera01, who pushed and nudged and kicked and screamed and even threatened with body harm if it did not get done. *hugs tight* I love you to pieces babe.
Also, I have to give huge thanks to beachtree, who helped me make this story better. She helped with the hurt and the angst and is the one that will probably force me to finish writing this other thing I'm writing that has everything to do with this story. Thanks, sweetie!
Betad by the one storydivagirl, the only, there is no other like her. *nods* She adores this story, says I hurt Ryan like no other and she loves me for this. Bare in mind she adores angst, so that might not say good things about this story.
I have nothing else to say except, read at your own risk. *nods* Believe me.
Special note: Well, this might sound a little bit weird, but I would advice that you read Chapter two once again, to... hmm. Well, I'm just advising it, that's all. *shrugs*

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( Chapter six )

That being said, and that being posted, I'm gonna stay here and try to write. *g*

I am evil, yes. I know. And things just keep getting worse and worse. Is that even possible? How can I rejoice on Ryan's pain? Is that even normal? *ponders* *shrugs* Who cares?

More of the fic that was never meant to be written. *eg*

Title: Yelling
Author: M. F. Luder
Fandom: The O.C.
Pairing: Pre-slash.
Rating: PG-13.
Author's note: You might know this story as what I used to call The Dark Story, and you can see all my rantings about this right there. *nods*
This story totally belongs to l_vera01, who pushed and nudged and kicked and screamed and even threatened with body harm if it did not get done. *hugs tight* I love you to pieces babe.
Betad by the one storydivagirl, the only, there is no other like her. *nods* She adores this story, says I hurt (insert character name here after you've read it) like no other and she loves me for this. Bare in mind she adores angst, so that might not say good things about this story.
I have nothing else to say except, read at your own risk. *nods* Believe me.

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( Chapter five )

Hope you all liked it and let me know!!

Hmm. I'm not saying anything about the lack of updates in the last month and something. *g* The thing is, it's here. Yep.

Also, yes, I'm evil. There's no question about that, is there?

Title: Yelling
Author: M. F. Luder
Fandom: The O.C.
Pairing: Pre-slash.
Rating: PG-13.
Category: Angst.
Warnings: Underage violence. Non-consensual of a minor. Dark themes.
Author's note: You might know this story as what I used to call The Dark Story, and you can see all my rantings about this right there. *nods*
This story totally belongs to l_vera01, who pushed and nudged and kicked and screamed and even threatened with body harm if it did not get done. *hugs tight* I love you to pieces babe.
Betad by the one storydivagirl, the only, there is no other like her. *nods* She adores this story, says I hurt (insert character name here after you've read it) like no other and she loves me for this. Bare in mind she adores angst, so that might not say good things about this story.
I have nothing else to say except, read at your own risk. *nods* Believe me.

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( Chapter four )

Hmm. Again, not saying anything. You tell me if you like it or I'm going to burn in hell. I think it might be both. *g*

Yes, it has taken me close to forever to update this (and yes, this comment sounds like the one I wrote for Sullen). So very sorry -- again. But November does mean NaNo and NaNo means me doing nothing but trying my best to get Sullen done, once and for all.

This is something of a bridge, and me being evil. *eg*

Title: Yelling
Author: M. F. Luder
Fandom: The O.C.
Pairing: Pre-slash.
Rating: PG-13.
Category: Angst.
Warnings: Underage violence. Non-consensual of a minor. Dark themes.
Author's note: You might know this story as what I used to call The Dark Story, and you can see all my rantings about this right there. *nods*
Now, to the real AN:
This story totally belongs to l_vera01, who pushed and nudged and kicked and screamed and even threatened with body harm if it did not get done. *hugs tight* I love you to pieces babe.
Betad by the one storydivagirl, the only, there is no other like her. *nods* She adores this story, says I hurt (insert character name here after you've read it) like no other and she loves me for this. Bare in mind she adores angst, so that might not say good things about this story.
I have nothing else to say except, read at your own risk. *nods* Believe me.

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( Chapter three )

Now, me leaving because Sandy wants a moment with Ryan. And since Sullen is totally talking to me, I'll post a excerpt in a little while. *bounces*

I said it wasn't going to take that long for me to update and I didn't lie. *g* See, here it is. I thought I'd post it Thursday because, well, there's a thing about Thursdays. *winks* They are just. Well, for a lack of a better word, dark. And I like dark. Gotta love dark. *bounces*

Anyway, where it is. Read it and let me know what you think. *g*

Title: Yelling
Author: M. F. Luder
Fandom: The O.C.
Pairing: Pre-slash.
Rating: NC-17.
Category: Angst.
Warnings: Because it's only chapter two, I'm still going to comment about this, just so you know what you're getting yourself into.
This story is not pretty. Not under any definition of the word. This is as ugly as it comes.
So let me repeat this, just in case. Warnings: Underage violence. Non-consensual. Dark themes.
I can very well add other stuff (lots of pain, people will hate me and some will love me, I have no idea which one scares me the most) and tons more, but I will stop myself from saying that.
Author's note: You might know this story as what I used to call The Dark Story, and you can see all my rantings about this right there. *nods*
Now, to the real AN:
This story totally belongs to l_vera01, who pushed and nudged and kicked and screamed and even threatened with body harm if it did not get done. *hugs tight* I love you to pieces babe.
Betad by the one storydivagirl, the only, there is no other like her. *nods* She adores this story, says I hurt (insert character name here after you've read it) like no other and she loves me for this. Bare in mind she adores angst, so that might not say good things about this story.
I have nothing else to say except, read at your own risk. *nods* Believe me.

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( Chapter two )

After all this hurt/sadness/pain, I have to go. *giggles* Yes, that's me, being the evil one of the bunch. Ta ta!

You know, I'm sitting here and I can't believe I'm doing this. I might have only worked on this story for three months, but I thought of very little but this story for those three months. It was... well, not only time consuming but it was very much like a bad dream, it caught me and didn't let me go. God. I'm very proud of it, not only because I've finished it.

You might know this story as what I used to call The Dark Story, and you can see all my rantings about this right there. *nods* Writing it, half the time, wasn't pretty, but now it's done and mygod, it's amazing. *nods*

Anyway, it is here, and I'm here, and I'm posting it. Threaten me later. *nods*

Title: Yelling
Author: M. F. Luder
Fandom: The O.C.
Pairing: Pre-slash.
Rating: PG-13. Ratings will change depending on the chapter.
Category: Angst.
Warnings: And this is when it gets funny. Mostly because this is the first time I have the need to put warnings, but this are BIG WARNINGS. *nods* This story is not pretty. Not under any definition of the word. This is as ugly as it comes.
So let me repeat this, just in case. Warnings: Underage violence. Non-consensual. Dark themes.
I can very well add other stuff (lots of pain, people will hate me and some will love me, I have no idea which one scares me the most) and tons more, but I will stop myself from saying that.
Author's note: I started this on very dark night, three months ago to the hour. I have no idea what I was thinking, except that the mere idea of writing this story had been bugging me for about two weeks, and had enough of a time line to actually feel confident enough to actually write it.
This story totally belongs to l_vera01, who pushed and nudged and kicked and screamed and even threatened with body harm if it did not get done today, and guess what? I finished it last night. Yes. It's done. And this is all because of her. *hugs tight* I love you to pieces babe.
Betad by the one storydivagirl, the only, there is no other like her. *nods* She adores this story, says I hurt (insert character name here after you've read it) like no other and she loves me for this. Bare in mind she adores angst, so that might not say good things about this story.
I have nothing else to say except, read at your own risk. *nods* Believe me.

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( Chapter one )

Leaving now. *bounces* So very excited and embarrassed and proud and God knows what else. Let me know you what you think. *winks*